Before I became a mom I was so focused on pushing myself harder and farther and past all my comfort zones to get to a better me. It was a lot of work and a lot of sleepless nights. It was a lot of nights of thinking I would break and there was no way I could get up and do it again tomorrow. Doubting that the goals I set were too big and there was no way I could accomplish what I set out to do. Every time I pushed through those moments and achieved a goal I discovered so much more about myself and I felt I breakable and unstoppable.
Now as a new mom I am still trying to find new large goals and achieve them and keep pushing through and I find myself failing miserably while also feeling like I am not appreciating or taking the time to enjoy all of the things I fought so hard to achieve.
All the work I put in pre-baby got me a great career a huge respect for my body and dedication to fitness and amazing boyfriend a beautiful son and a new home where we can grow as a family for years to come. So why can’t I relax and sit back and enjoy everything I busted my ass for?!
It is time to focus on being present. Being aware of the moments with my son and boyfriend that will pass by so fast if I don’t stop to take it all in. Enjoy my work and the fact that I used to love what I do and if I just stopped for a minute I could find that passion again. There is a reason for all of this.
So being present is the new goal. And it is probably the hardest goal I have ever set but will have the biggest reward on my life.